Again and again the cloud palls over the days, and the summer's end is not far off now.
I'm enjoying my new cd's and the surprising freedom that I have this weekend, and recalling the same feelings that Homer Simpson had in this same situation, but no 'Duff' and no TV for me, just GnT and a trip or three.
Quit holding out-and draw another breath
I foolishly made an error when my Shizuoka friend would visit me, how stupid I was to read the wrong dates. But I can better prepare for the glory days, and the weather will make ammends I know it...right? A little tingle comes over me now, thinking of it.
As I type, I'm eating true English chips, (how I defend and promote them these days!!), with Thai chilli sauce, (simply 'hot' and delicious), German sausage, (rostbratwurst mit spinat), French vinager and rosemary from my garden, washed down with Xiantaiyunwucha. All accompanied with the beautiful sound of Dream Child: Horizons...ahh, this moment I will cherish!
But when we were talking-i saw you nodding out
So the discovery of an old cassette has rekindled many memories, and some surprising new angles on old perspectives. But also I realise that my bad memories of childhood, are not so bad actually, and some have started to feel positively 'ok'...but maybe it's because I yearn for my wild streak to show me more courage, and the shouldn't-do-that-drumbeats to fade-out, and let the me that is happier than I feel, appear on the outside. I know I can do it, because we all can.
An' you know what they said? Well, some of it was true!
This evening a postponed cycle ride, long phone call to France, feed my mother's huge dog, and think of those that are not near me at this moment.
The spine is on hold for now, awaiting the MRI hospital appointment, so my planned autumn trip to Japan is also on hold.
心配～～～
I've been given 6 different means of self-physiotherapy, 5 of which help me. I must do 10 sessions a day for any positive effects to ease the spine, build up some muscles and help my movement. One that is awkward is the 'all four's' performance, whereby the spine should be level...when it hurts, I have no idea whether it is 'lazy', or in the polevault position.
And after all this, won't you give me a smile?
