by
wensum24
@ 14/10/2005 - 18:16:57
This morning started brightly, not by looking out of the window, but by answering the door to the postman, and collecting mail which was actually hand-written and for me, as a human being, not statistical noose-mail.
My loveliest friends from Kyoto, my art buddies of many years, sent me some get-well-soon cards...all hand painted, and also some snacks, as they remembered my soft spot for o-senbei. I've had three already! My heart is cheered enormously by this, and I read the three cards, and feel a little complicated..."should I stay or should I go?" ...I was supposed to be in Kyoto at the end of this month, as they had planned many events, and so had I. My friend is a graphic artist/painter, her partner colours and designs kimono patterns, he and I share near identical musical tastes, and their mutual friend, is perhaps the most talented of all...she is expert in children's stories and artworks, having many exhibitions on Honshuu. I've drawn many artworks myself to take there, all Japanese and Thai style...but...
yesterday I sought the doctor yet again, my spine is displaced as I am pained beyond the barrier, and now the slipped disc has gone into the tenth month with no satisfactory treatment, such is the NHS situation. That day in January, playing by the university team, running in on goal, and being hacked down by the new boy, little did I know that 10 months later, my project and trip to Japan, and very profession would all be knocked back by our rich country's waiting lists. I have not even had an MRI yet, and meanwhile, I am now unable to walk at all, get out of cars when nobody is looking such is my shame of being 35-going-on-75, and now have complications with my rib cage resulting from all this, with my heart being slowly squashed by the changing position of my bones. For 10 months I've had in mind, I can do it, I can recover, I can use this to my advantage, and there are thousands of less fortunate people...but this week I snapped, damn it, about bloody time too...I value my life, and want to enjoy what I can, when I can, while I can...because I know personally, it is far from finite. I dislike speaking like this, but this is my week, when I've been told not to push my body as the damaged bones will restrict the heartbeats. Heavens.
So that means no flight to Tokyo, this year?
My doctor told me, "I hope you'll have the MRI this side of Christmas" ...which year?
My German nephew returned to Germany this week, and was thrilled with England. We had a great time listening to Slam in my car on Norfolk's roads~~! I will return to Germany, to a health spa for three of four days next month.
Blog buddies, what's your favourite place, and why?
Colour: Dimgray and indigo
Music: Dub Kult: On and On ~~This is awesome~~
Reading: Lowell Sheppard: Chasing the Cherry Blossom