This was written during the early hours of this morning, just after movement returned to my arms and hands..just enough to write. my eyesight cleared slightly too, (after the medicine-related blurring), so this could be written.

Fahnenstange
My heart and head have come apart
in summer's disintegration all around
passing me by as leaves depart
in a second's autumn shiver profound

Summer's lush cover now blown
this stark October outline deceives
in nauseous mind outgrown
a life my waning heart disbelieves

Lost in a disabling flood
standing like a flagpole, flag at half-mast
flying my colours in pure blood
a symbol of medical experiments past

Tied to life upon this mast
within a vexed question of hospitalisation
I'll fly my flag right to the last
in rectitude stand; life's defiant!

written by lauren6

I thank all my dear friends for equally dear comments...I'll reply when I can...

I'm using ALL my effort to type this...my body is so weak, yesterday I lost use of limbs and my arms were unable to move...my eyes blurred so much too...today some, just some strength has returned, but I cannot say what my doctor's and my medication has done to me, but I know my life is in danger. The medication is ruining my heart.
However, I do know that, though I'm weakening by the day, I shall continue fighting for MY life, which I value more than ever.
I will win somehow..somewhere...

I have no more energy to type, and rest for the day now...maybe I'll return here later this week, but I don't know what the near future brings.

For all my friends, especially dearestKK, this is for you...

Schiller mit Heppner: I feel You (A brilliant, brilliant song)

I feel you,
in every stone,
in every leaf of every tree,
that you ever might have grown.

I feel you,
in every thing,
in every river that might flow,
in every seed you might have sown.

I feel you. (5x)

I feel you,
in every vein,
in every beatin' of my heart,
each breath I take.

I feel you, anyway,
in every tear that I might shed,
in every word I've never said.

I feel you (4x)

I feel you,
in every vein,
in every beatin' of my heart,
in every breath I'll ever take.

I feel you, anyway,
in every tear that I might shed,
in every word I've never said.

I feel you. (5x)

I feel you.