Nervous Road Block

What happened?...to bring me to such a place
I hear metalic rattles and the drum of my heart
but feeling nothing; this numbness doesn't know where to start!
what changed? the scenery on this seasoned frown upon my face

I'm lost again without my property to sleep in
only ceilings of a Norfolk that was never this flat
before the needles gave me this reason to chat
help is at hand!...they find me here ready to win

I have a name upon this tag, and it's printed in China
now that's established, where am I exactly?
tell me before I forget, as I remember it so abstractly
my art has come undone and yet it couldn't be finer.

By Ed.

(This was before another surgery; in a waiting area, dressed-down for the operation, but barely able to move, I was allowed a pen and my notebook. This was also after numerous medication too, but allow me to share my trepidation of the time.)

I've just had a doctor put my neck in a brace for safety, due to my spinal nerves becoming 'very tense'...so I guess my dancing days have been postponed by a further day~~!!

In the old days, the rich landlords owned everything and the poor peasants worked the land, earning barely enough to survive. Often, the starving peasants would go into the woods and gather firewood, mushrooms or acorns, knowing full well that the landlord could have them severely punished for theft.Petro was a young man who had been caught many times by the landlord and his guards. The landlord finally decided that, since nothing would stop Petro from his behavior, he must be put to death.On the day of his hanging, a large crowd gathered in the yard of the landlord. Petro was well-known to all the villagers, and they were sorry that it had come to this. Before the rope was put on him, the landlord asked if Petro had one last request. I do, Your Honor, said Petro. I would like one last look at this beautiful world. The request being granted, Petro stepped into the middle of the yard, while the people stood back to make room for him. What a beautiful sky this is, cried Petro. What beautiful clouds and sun! Soon my young eyes shall see thee no more! No more will my ears hear the whisper of the breeze or the babbling of the brook! Petro carried on at some length, and the crowd became quite emotional. Some were openly weeping, and others stood looking at their feet. Petro slowly made his way to the edge of the crowd, speaking all the while of how he would miss the world when he was gone.Suddenly, he leaped the fence and was gone, as fast as his feet would carry him. At first, no one realized that he was gone and, by the time the guards came to their senses, it was too late. Petro was no longer there. Petro ran for all he was worth and finally came to his hut. He rushed in the door and flopped himself on his reed bed. His surprised wife saw him come running, and when she followed him into the house, she saw him on the bed with his feet on the pillow and his head at the other end. What is happening? she cried. Are you crazy? Why are your feet on the pillow? Petro smiled and replied, If it were not for my feet, this crazy head would not be on my neck. They saved my life, so they deserve the pillow, and they shall have it!

From "Feet on the Pillow and Other Ukrainian Folk Tales Retold in English,"

A military cargo plane, flying over a populated area, suddenly looses power and starts to nose down. The pilot tries to pull up, but with all their cargo, the plane is too heavy. So he yells to the soldiers in back to throw things out to make the plane lighter. They throw out a pistol. "Throw out more!" shouts the pilot. So they throw out a rifle. "More!" he cries again. They heave out a missile, and the pilot regains control.

He pulls out of the dive and lands safely at an airport. They get into a jeep and drive off. Pretty soon they meet a boy on the side of the road who's crying. They ask him why he's crying and he says "A pistol hit me on the head!"

They drive more and meet another boy who's crying even harder. Again they ask why and the boy says, "A rifle hit me on the head!"

They apologize and keep driving. They meet a boy on the sidewalk who's laughing hysterically. They ask him, "Kid, what's so funny?" The boy replies, "I sneezed and the school blew up!"

These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, and are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.

ATTORNEY: Are you sexually active?
WITNESS: No, I just lie there.

ATTORNEY: What is your date of birth?
WITNESS: July 18th.
ATTORNEY: What year?
WITNESS: Every year.

ATTORNEY: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?
WITNESS: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.

ATTORNEY: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: And in what ways does it affect your memory?
WITNESS: I forget.
ATTORNEY: You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?

ATTORNEY: How old is your son, the one living with you?
WITNESS: Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can't remember which.
ATTORNEY: How long has he lived with you?
WITNESS: Forty-five years.

ATTORNEY: What was the first thing your husband said to you that morning?
WITNESS: He said, "Where am I, Cathy?"
ATTORNEY: And why did that upset you?
WITNESS: Of course, damn it! My name is Susan.

ATTORNEY: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?
WITNESS: We both do.
ATTORNEY: Voodoo?
WITNESS: We do.
ATTORNEY: You do?
WITNESS: Yes, voodoo.

ATTORNEY: Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?
WITNESS: Did you actually pass the bar exam?

ATTORNEY: The youngest son, the twenty year old, how old is he?
WITNESS: Uh, he's twenty.

ATTORNEY: Were you present when your picture was taken?

WITNESS: Would you repeat the question?

ATTORNEY: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: And what were you doing at that time?
WITNESS: Uh....

ATTORNEY: She had three children, right?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: How many were boys?
WITNESS: None.
ATTORNEY: Were there any girls?

ATTORNEY: How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS: By death.
ATTORNEY: And by whose death was it terminated?

ATTORNEY: Can you describe the individual?
WITNESS: He was about medium height and had a beard.
ATTORNEY: Was this a male or a female?

ATTORNEY: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice, which I sent to your attorney?
WITNESS: No, this is how I dress when I go to work.

ATTORNEY: Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on dead people?
WITNESS: All my autopsies are performed on dead people.

ATTORNEY: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?
WITNESS: Oral.

ATTORNEY: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
WITNESS: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.

ATTORNEY: And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why was doing an autopsy on him!

ATTORNEY: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?
WITNESS: Huh?

And The Best For Last:

ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY: But could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS: Yes,I suppose that it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law!

Cheerfulness removes the rust from the mind, lubricates our inward machinery, and
enables us to do our work with fewer creaks and groans. If people were universally
cheerful, there wouldn't be half the quarreling or a tenth part of the wickedness there is.
Cheerfulness, too, promotes health and morality.
Cheerful people live longest here on earth, afterward in our hearts.
- Author Unknown

Thin Lizzy: Waiting for an Alibi

Valentinos got a booky shop and what he takes
He gives for what hes got
And what hes got he says he has not
Stolen from anyone

Its not that he dont tell the truth
Or even that he misspent his youth
Its just that he holds the proof
But you feel theres something wrong

Waiting for an alibi
Waiting for an alibi
Waiting for an alibi
Waiting for an alibi

Valentinos in a cold sweat, placed all his money on that last bet
Against the odds he smokes another cigarette
Says that it helps him to forget
That he's a nervous wreck

Its not that he misses much
Or even that he's lost his lucky touch
Its just that he gambles so much
And you know that its wrong

Waiting for an alibi
Waiting for an alibi
Waiting just to catch your eye
Waiting for an alibi

Waiting for an alibi
Try to say I told you I told you

Waiting for an alibi
Waiting just to get you
Waiting for an alibi
Waiting for an alibi
To say I told you
Waiting for an alibi
Waiting for an alibi.

I dedicate this song to all those who are gambling with health, and I mean certain people in the medical profession treating patients lives as a game.
In my case, a professional medic who treated my life as a joke!!!!!
I would add that 99.9% of the medical staff are brilliant, and work their guts out to save people, and indeed the good NHS staff saved my life, for which I owe my life of gratitude...just a pity some disregard the value of life and the merit of their own profession.

I've played this song on my blog before, but add it again now because it is so outstandingly memorable...

This is for my lovelyONE...

Schiller mit Heppner: I feel you...

Schiller with Peter Heppner.

To start your morning....

If you need a laugh, read through these Children's Science Exam Answers.
These are real answers given by children.

Q: Name the four seasons.
A: Salt, pepper, mustard and vinegar.

Q: Explain one of the processes by which water can be made safe to
drink.
A: Flirtation makes water safe to drink because it removes large
pollutants like grit, sand, dead sheep and canoeists.

Q: How is dew formed?
A: The sun shines down on the leaves and makes them perspire.

Q: How can you delay milk turning sour?
A: Keep it in the cow.

Q: What causes the tides in the oceans?
A: The tides are a fight between the Earth and the Moon. All water
tends to flow towards the moon, because there is no water on the moon, and
nature hates a vacuum. I forget where the sun joins in this fight.

Q: What are steroids?
A: Things for keeping carpets still on the stairs.

Q: What happens to your body as you age?
A: When you get old, so do your bowels and you get intercontinental.

Q: What happens to a boy when he reaches puberty?
A: He says good-bye to his boyhood and looks forward to his adultery

Q: Name a major disease associated with cigarettes.
A: Premature death.

Q: How are the main parts of the body categorized? (e.g. abdomen.)
A: The body is consisted into three parts---the brainium, the borax and
the abdominal cavity. The brainium contains the brain; the borax contains
the heart and lungs, and the abdominal cavity contains the five bowels, A,
E, I, O, and U.

Q: What is the fibula?
A: A small lie.

Q: What does "varicose" mean?
A: Nearby.

Q: Give the meaning of the term "Caesarean Section"
A: The Caesarean Section is a district in Rome.

Q: What does the word "benign" mean?'
A: Benign is what you will be after you be eight.

I'm so happy with my Liverpool, winning against the European Champions Barcelona in their own 'fortress' by 2-1...and though I was not a Craig Bellamy fan, I am proud that he was once a Norwich City player and did well last night!!!
Liverpool are looking good in this years European Cup.

...is to wish you my friends all the best today, and please accept my apologies for not being energised enough yet to reply quickly, or visit your blogs...I will, I surely will.

Last night I was injected again, in hospital, so my feeling is far from active right now!

Happy wishes to you all~~
Ed

...then tell them this;

1. If they want to loan you money, tell them you just filed for bankruptcy and you could sure use some money.

2. If they start out with, "How are you today?" say, "I'm so glad you asked, because no one these days seems to care, and I have all these problems. My arthritis is acting up, my eyelashes are sore, my dog just died . . . "

3. If they say they're John Doe from XYZ Company, ask them to spell their name. Then ask them to spell the company name. Then ask them where it is located, how long it has been in business, how many people work there, how they got into this line of work if they are married, how many kids they have, etc. Continue asking them personal questions or questions about their company for as long as necessary.

4. (This works great if you are male) Telemarketer: "Hi, my name is Judy and I'm with XYZ Company. " You: Wait for a second and with a real husky voice ask, "What are you wearing?"

5. Cry out in surprise, "Judy? Is that you? Oh my God! Judy, how have you been?" Hopefully, this will give Judy a few brief moments of terror as she tries to figure out where she could know you from.

6. Say "No" over and over. Be sure to vary the sound of each one, and keep a rhythmic tempo, even as they are trying to speak. This is most fun if you can do it until they hang up.

7. If MCI calls trying to get you to sign up for the Family and Friends Plan, reply, in as sinister a voice as you can, "I don't have any friends, would you be my friend?"

8. If the company cleans rugs, respond: "Can you get out blood? Can you get out goat blood? How about human blood?"

9. After the Telemarketer gives his or her spiel, ask him or her to marry you. When they get all flustered, tell them that you can't just give your credit card number to a complete stranger.

10. If the Telemarketer is selling raffle tickets, tell him or her that you work for the same company, and that employees cannot participate.

11. Answer the phone. As soon as you realize it is a Telemarketer, set the receiver down, scream, "OH MY GOD!" and then hang up.

12. Tell the Telemarketer you are busy at the moment and ask if he/she will give you their home phone number so you can call him/her back. When the Telemarketer explains that telemarketers cannot give out their home numbers say, "I guess you don't want anyone bothering you at home, right?" The Telemarketer will agree and you say, "Me either!" and proceed to hang up.

13. Ask them to repeat everything they say, several times.

14. Tell them it is dinner time, but ask if they would please hold. Put them on your speaker phone while you continue to eat at your leisure. Smack your food loudly and continue with your dinner conversation. For added effect, clanging of cutlery and dishes is recommended.

15. Tell the Telemarketer you are on "home incarceration" and ask if they could bring you some beer.

16. Ask them to fax the information to you, and make up a number.

17. Tell the Telemarketer, "Okay, I'll listen to you. But I should probably tell you, I'm not wearing any clothes."

18. Insist that the caller is really your buddy Leon, playing a joke. "Come on, Leon, cut it out! Seriously, Leon, how's your momma?"

19. Tell them you are hard of hearing and that they need to speak up... louder... louder!

20. Tell them to talk very slowly, because you want to write every word down.

IT'S A SMALL PLACE, and a neighbourly one, and I found it quite by accident - just the kind of combination, perhaps, calculated to win one's heart. The maps of East Anglia are full of tantalising echoes of such corners. Every day you drive past the dried-out fields alongside Fen Lanes, past the empty, private spaces (or, now, uncompromisingly developed ones) of Low Commons, and wonder how rowdy and rich and communal this region must have been two centuries ago. But this little Marsh, marked as such on the Ordnance Survey, is still there. Just four acres of perfectly dank and tangled meadowland, unfussy, unclaimed, unmanaged, and scattered with ponds and dykes. There was a little Ranters' settlement here in the nineteenth century, and I like to think they added their extravagant, festive aura to the liveliness of the place.

For the whole of the growing season, its damp, tremulous membrane of living tissue recapitulates the pendulum swings of ancient ecosystems: wood to wetland, shade to light; from the musky sheets of moschatel in the early spring, through the vivid flowers of the first clearings - cowslip and marsh orchid and forget-me-not - to the almost-woodland-again sheaves of meadowsweet and codlins and cream in high summer. And if you don't feel philosophical you can simply sit and relish the scent of water-mint and the snap of hawking swallows' bills.

Or you can if you're feeling right, attuned. There is no such thing as a favourite place if you are not, in that vivid, present moment, one of nature's favourite persons. Our sensuous, imaginative relishing of a place, which is partly conscious but partly beyond our individual choice, is the way we engage ecologically with nature, and a place cannot be wholly separate from our experience of it. So I would say that my favourite spot, at present, is me on fine-tuned day with Wortham Marsh.

by Richard Mabey

Don't know why there's no sun up in the sky? Blame Greenland's weather.

UEA [Norwich] experts are on a mission to "significantly improve" the accuracy of British weather forecasts - and they believe looking closely at weather patterns in the mountains of southern Greenland may hold the key. They will take to the skies in a specially-adapted aircraft this week to attempt to gauge the influence of the atmosphere over both Greenland and Iceland on the weather in Britain and northern Europe.

In particular, they believe the mountainous region in the southern tip of Greenland produces hurricane-strength "tip jets"', "barrier winds" and "mesoscale cyclones"which turn the seas and affect the weather downstream in the UK some three to four days later.

Small cyclones known as "polar lows" can sometimes produce heavy snow in north-western Europe.

The pioneering research, led by Ian Renfrew of UEA's School of Environmental Sciences in Norwich, comes at the start of the International

Polar Year which begins on March 1 and is launched in the UK by the Princess Royal on February 26.

"In Britain, we tend to view medium-range weather forecasts with a certain scepticism, so it is very exciting to be part of a

project which could significantly improve their accuracy," said Dr Renfrew.

"Though we have suspected for several years that the mountainous presence of Greenland has a strong influence over our own weather, this will be the first time that its impact has been observed."

Dr Renfrew and an international team of scientists - drawn from the UK, Canada, Norway, Iceland and the United States - will conduct

the Greenland Flow Distortion Experiment (GFDex) experiment from February 21 to March 10.

Richard Swinbank, who is leading a team from the Met Office team, said: "We will identify areas where additional targeted observations should be particularly beneficial, and afterwards we will check the benefit that the extra observations had on our forecasts."

As well as improving predictions of UK weather, the research will also fill in missing gaps in the existing climate change models, such as those used by the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC) in its major report earlier this month. This will help to improve the accuracy and the long-term range of climate change predictions.

From: EDP

Those who hate are left in the past,
those who love are heading to the future.

by Ed...this is my proverb for living!!

Hatred is never anything but fear—if you feared no one, you would hate no one.

Keane: Atlantic

I hope all my days
Will be lit by your face
I hope all the years
Will hold tight our promises

I don't wanna be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don't wanna be old and feel afraid

I don't wanna be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don't wanna be old and feel afraid

And if I need anything at all

I need a place
That's hidden in the deep
Where lonely angels sing you to your sleep
Though all the world is broken

I need a place
Where I can make my bed
A lover's lap where I can lay my head
Cos now the room is spinning
The day's beginning

Suede: Stay Together

Come to my house tonight
We can be together in the nuclear sky
And we will dance in the poison rain
And we can stay a while in heaven today
Lets stay together
Lets stay, these days are ours
Lets die together?
Two hearts under the skyscrapers
Theres a time bomb in the high rise
Theres a blue suburban dream
Will I see you up in paradise
Or have you come to catch me?
Come to my arms tonight
Just you and me together under electric light
And she will dance in the poison air
And we can stay together
Two hearts under the skyscrapers
Theres a time bomb in the high rise
Theres a blue suburban dream
Will I see you up in paradise
Or have you come to catch me?
Come to my arms Im lost
Just you and me together in the year of the horse
Single file in the nuclear night
And we could feel a little closer
As we tumble through the sky
Lets stay together, lets stay these days are ours
Lets stay together
Two hearts under a skyscraper
Lets stay together, lets stay in this broken down love
Lets stay together, two hearts under the skyscrapers

Write injuries in sand, kindnesses in marble.

French proverb

I want to thank everyone for staying by me, most of all my loveKK, but everyone is appreciated deeply...I will get back to a routine in future...just wanted to thank you all.

Love shines above the clouds,
sometimes unseen
within hearts,
sometimes unknown
behind a smile
sometimes unshown
when it comes to us-
together we're one heart between.

wensum24

There by the Grace of God: Manic Street Preachers

And all the drugs in the world
Cant save us from ourselves
Victims with the saddest hearts
Passing by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

With grace we will suffer
With grace we shall recover
There by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

Lay down all your guns
Give them up and then move on
It doesnt mean that you are dead
Passing by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

With grace we will suffer
With grace we shall recover
There by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

With grace we will suffer
With grace we shall recover
There by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

There by the grace of god

And all the drugs in the world...

With grace we will suffer
With grace we shall recover
There by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

With grace we will suffer
With grace we shall recover
There by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

And all the drugs in the world
Cant save us from ourselves
Victims with the saddest hearts
Passing by the grace of god
There by the grace of god

So much is heard
when so little is said
so little to be said
when all is heard
yet I'm crying
yet I'm calling
yet I'm listening
yet I'm saying
the heart is our blessing
as a son to a father
my heart lives,
so shall yours.

wensum24
15h45
today

The hurt of today
passed down from yesterday
affords no consolation
until after sundown
for tomorrow shares
only one certainty
this I am sure,
that the human race
is neither won nor lost
for one simple reason
that the race to overcome
survives equally and victoriously in us all.

wensum24

"The Ground Beneath Her Feet" U2

Little by little, getting back to home routines...but little by little resting.
I'll try my best to stay in touch with you all.
Bear with me, please!

Hello my dear friends!

I am home, I don't know how...but I'm home...and survived what I hope is the worst of anything I could ever imagine, but more of that later, when I'm stronger...

Firstly thanks to my loveKK for all she has done, and thanks to all of YOU!!!

I don't have much energy now, and please, be patient with me, as I need to preserve energy for many weeks...

Thank YOU all...
love,
Ed