Guten morgen, perhaps

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Guten morgen, perhaps

by wensum24 @ 31/01/2008 – 09:05:52

Some desire is necessary to keep life in motion.

~Samuel Johnson

Hello everyone,

I'm awake to the roaring sound of the wind howling outside within the eddy of hospital buildings. What an ironic name...

Yesterday I had some scans for my spinal cord and neck, and some physio, traction, and then treatments and injections. I felt euphoria for an hour or so, then deep depression. Being filled up with harder drugs is not a good path to take, but I realise it may be the only one. (I now reterm it, mediSIN.)

The scan revealed some rather disconcerting news; I will need yet another major spinal operation on February 12th.
I'm just not ready for this, how can it be? Am I still unconscious? This just cannot be happening to me.
It is a surprise at how soon it is, because usually they 'offer' surgery several months hence, but not this time.

So that means I'll have to find some more resolve in just two weeks.

It's got to be better than this, surely....surely...

Have a lovely day,
Ed
xx

The unexamined life is not worth living.

~Socrates
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- deleted user (Visitor)
- 31/01/2008 @ 09:10:26
oh flipping heck....you poor lovey.......

It is indeed very windy blustery buffeting round here.....and I do love it in fact....there are several of very tall beech trees nearby as well as lots of others and they make the most wonderful sound and look so amazing....love it love it love it......

Good luck with it all.....hugs...x.x
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  - 31/01/2008 @ 09:11:54
  Thanks, and yes, there is a certain energy to this weather, which is not unpleasant. I feel like a cat in a gale = hyper hyper !!
  
  Take care all good wishes, hugs xx
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- jackfrost ^Pro
- 31/01/2008 @ 09:10:38
sorry to hear that...my wife has had three now ...she had them at stanmore ....be positive ..
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  - 31/01/2008 @ 09:13:11
  Thanks so much Jack...mine will be here in Norwich, and it'll by my third major spinal 'work' as well...had several minor ones too.
  Yes, positivity is everything.
  How's your wife now, did the op's work out?
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    - 31/01/2008 @ 09:21:03
    hers was to correct Scoliosis....she had some complications with the Rods...which caused her to suffer from cronic pain....but her spine is straight now....
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      - 31/01/2008 @ 09:25:12
      well, thats great news and a big encouragement to me, certainly...I need all the hope I can find
      All the best to her, and to you!!!!
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- lee954
- 31/01/2008 @ 09:15:34
Sorry to read that you need another operation; I hope you can build up a bit of strength for these next couple of weeks.

You mentioned traction; well being in traction is the first thing I can remember - I was only a toddler and had broken my left thigh.
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  - 31/01/2008 @ 09:19:36
  Thank you my friend, I hope so too...I really need to be on form for that date.
  
  That early memory of traction, is it a good one? My surgeon and physio both highly recommended it, and yesterday's experience of traction was certainly positive.
  
  We've a howling gale here...there too?
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    - 31/01/2008 @ 09:23:26
    It must have been a good experience because I usually spend a few minutes every day doing stretching exercises; however, since I'm 6ft 3ins tall I'm often stuck in cramped spaces and need to stretch my legs just by walking about a bit.
    
    The weather here is awful; strong winds and heavy rain, but forecast to improve by this afternoon.
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      - 31/01/2008 @ 09:27:50
      Morning exercises are the best, I've been told...and have been advised to do the same.
      I'm nowhere near 6'3", just 5'11", so you must feel the cramped sensation quite a bit.
      I can't wait to resume walking someday...the most natural of all isn't it.
      
      We've no rain yet...must be a joy awaiting us in Norwich!
      
      All the very best to you.
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- kiki2u
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- 31/01/2008 @ 09:17:42
The LIFE always worths we live it ED!
Yes, not good news again and i'm really soooooooo sorry! Have no words, but u know i'm by you
I have2go out now, in 10 minutes or so,but i'l be back soon and i'l talk with you
Please try your best
Huneyyyyyyyyclosehugssssssss
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  - 31/01/2008 @ 09:21:20
  Thank you, obrigado~~~~yes, I try, its all I can do...
  manyyyyy honeyhugclosekisses..by you too.....always....thanks 4 everything, u r really a star 2 me xoxoxoxox
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    - 31/01/2008 @ 14:31:14
    You must be resting now, yes i know you have been trying since so long time ago and if you see with a great success so be positive always, and keep trying because you CAN and you WIN it
    {{{BIGHUNYHUGS2U2}}} rest well,
    xoxox
    KK
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      - 03/02/2008 @ 10:36:12
      Swty1111, im back now, but very tired, resting, thanks, yes, must fight all this, and make it for the 12th to be stronger...hopefully.
      Many sunnyhunykisses, love2uuuuu hugss xxxx
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- amanda32
- 31/01/2008 @ 18:22:49
Im very sorry to hear that babe, keep positive, u know u can do this, keep strong

hugs
xx
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  - 03/02/2008 @ 10:37:04
  Thank youuu...ive been away a few days in a different hospital having scans, treatments and checks.
  Hope you are fine?
  hugs xx
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- cishanjia
- 31/01/2008 @ 19:07:30
I think I saw some nanny fly by clinging to a brolly, singing something about spoons and medicines...
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  - 03/02/2008 @ 10:39:07
  Hahahahaha
  
  I hope all is well your side?
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    - cishanjia
    - 04/02/2008 @ 18:42:36
    Just started a second (third? fourth?) new blog: http://lifecomment.blog.co.uk
    
    Just posted about my mum's return from hospital. All OKish, thanks Ed.
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      - 04/02/2008 @ 19:22:18
      Im so glad she's okish, regards to her and all the best...I'll try to visit your blog soon...Im not doing too well, but managed a few minutes here.
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- dafter
- 01/02/2008 @ 20:17:21
Hey - Dafter's here

BCUK has been playing up today and I feel guilty that I haven't given you your daily medicine

I'll give you an extra measure tomorrow
- - wensum24
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  - 03/02/2008 @ 10:40:41
  Aloa~~
  Ive been away in another hospital a while, back now, will visit yours soon
  Has BCUK been playing up again? We'll have to kick some blog-butt
  
  x-tra measure, today?
  - - dafter
    - 03/02/2008 @ 16:07:45
    Yea - get kicking - the exercise might do you the world of good!
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      - 04/02/2008 @ 19:20:08
      Yes, thats for sure, nothing like a good kick to clear those cobwebs away
      
      hope you're doing fine?
      - dafter
        
        04/02/2008 @ 19:42:28
        
        Me? ah just as daft as ever!
        
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        wensum24
        
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        05/02/2008 @ 09:45:31
        
        really??? hahahaha, well, that makes two of us
        
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        dafter
        
        05/02/2008 @ 09:55:49
        
        It's good being daft! Here let's have a group hug!
        
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        wensum24
        
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        05/02/2008 @ 09:57:40
        
        hehehe, yes, ok I'm in hugsss
        
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        dafter
        
        05/02/2008 @ 10:01:05
        
        A nice way to start the day!
        
        See you later
        
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        05/02/2008 @ 10:05:29
        
        a lovely way, yes indeedy
        
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- ganesharocks
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- 01/02/2008 @ 20:35:49
I can't believe they are just finding this out now. With everything else you've had to go through.

Keep your chin up my friend! It WILL get better, promise!

Extra ww across the pond
xxx
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  - 03/02/2008 @ 10:42:59
  Yes, it is actually VERY distressing for me, because the pain in my neck I just assumed was from the lower spine, and they never really believed me anyway...but now I know it IS true...they almost try to make me think I'm imagining pains...with the medical record I've got!!!
  
  Better days...yes...give me a pole-vault and I will try to make it there
  
  ww xx
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    - 04/02/2008 @ 00:56:07
    You could always ask the Nurses to bring you a pole so you can leap over the doctors that are literally causing you pain in the neck! Just don't slip on that bananna peel
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      - 04/02/2008 @ 19:21:17
      thats a good point, but what'll those nurses think of me asking for a pole? they're already suspicious of the mess under my bed...chocolates, banana skins, crow bars, stardust
      - ganesharocks
        
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        05/02/2008 @ 00:38:05
        
        OMG!!! You seriously almost made me spit my drink at the computer screen
        
        Just imagine!
        
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        05/02/2008 @ 09:48:27
        
        OMG 2 hahahaha, if you spilt your drink, then that will also be under this metal bed...what will the cleaners think...they'll blame me you know
        
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        ganesharocks
        
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        06/02/2008 @ 03:05:14
        
        Quick ask someone to wipe it up or you'll have coffee stains everywhere
        
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        06/02/2008 @ 14:01:16
        
        yes, must do so...or else they wont ever believe they're coffee stains !!!
        
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        ganesharocks
        
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        16/02/2008 @ 14:58:16
        
        BOL
        
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- yolicoliflor
- 07/02/2008 @ 13:01:19
Strolling by Medecin university in santiago I devised a few medical books sold on the sidewalk...

I took a peep at them, just because medecine is such a pride in our country (not only attending humans but making human doctors from all poor countries to go back and continue health care Cuba is giving beyond it's boundaries).

then this one brodeau hard cover book whistled me with golden letters "SPINE". Mine it was at once with a closer to me one on Cuban painting. I went through it... easier than I thought since only image reading and cases to study as exercices...

It was another way to think of you, of the Colombian medecin student at my mother's home potponing spine surgery to keep on on his studies... and practice (essential part in learning in Cuba)and even of my feable age spine and neck pain making me stumble and teaching me more and more not always in a smile...

This book I left to the Colombian future doctor and his room mate.

by the way, I wasn't able to read all cases as they were getting more and more complicated and painful... but guess what. i found on page 15 or was it 16 a tiny little sketch mentioning symptoms on one column, spine location and diagnosis ! Gee ! It was so simple ! so exactly described as felt and heard ! Then why were doctors so little minding of things i tried to describe when it seems so impossible to describe pain is bitting you just then and changing seconds after to again come in another way ? It - seemed - so - clear !!!

I wanted to copy it... then had no time as there is never enough time to leave wherever you be to go into a new situation...

But might as well try to get it for you... above all.

Dearest Ed, on is on and there you go. Don't take account if you feel going bang bang, dazzling lonst in mist and again, again, again, plus, encore, on remets ça... You are still you bold or lost you will always be our biggest friend, marvelous Ed we all wish to see walk. Yes you can !

Last night my friend, I'm staying at (since I have no more home waiting to stay and settle in one home island)told me about a young men he met at the association he works in time to time keeping members in shape and good physical condition inspite of... this person got a virus just like that ! and went paralysed. paraplégique. It took him 5 years to recover movement, walk and talk... What makes him insist in physical training is the safecord to cling to and s haalready saved him. but it must have started so painfully in his mind, refusing to cooperate, paralysed itself...

I have only heard of success in all spine I have seen around me and so I say to this colombian student, Victor, postponing his while I see his body change to face pain in daily shores.

I believe in you and enlightment of your doctors.

You are a man ! A wonderful one !!!

besitos, Ed

yoli
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