Some desire is necessary to keep life in motion.
~Samuel Johnson
Hello everyone,
I'm awake to the roaring sound of the wind howling outside within the eddy of hospital buildings. What an ironic name...
Yesterday I had some scans for my spinal cord and neck, and some physio, traction, and then treatments and injections. I felt euphoria for an hour or so, then deep depression. Being filled up with harder drugs is not a good path to take, but I realise it may be the only one. (I now reterm it, mediSIN.)
The scan revealed some rather disconcerting news; I will need yet another major spinal operation on February 12th. 
I'm just not ready for this, how can it be? Am I still unconscious? This just cannot be happening to me.
It is a surprise at how soon it is, because usually they 'offer' surgery several months hence, but not this time.
So that means I'll have to find some more resolve in just two weeks.
It's got to be better than this, surely....surely...
Have a lovely day,
Ed
xx
The unexamined life is not worth living.
~Socrates
